At kung sakaling dumaan ako at pinalagpas mo,
tanggapin na lang na ganun talaga ang buhay siguro.
Siguro nga hindi talaga tayo dapat magtagpo,
siguro hanggang panaginip ko lang ang lahat ng ito.

[ 2008.04.27.20.59 ]

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I realized this morning that there’s no other person aside from you in this planet that I’d call instantly if I feel like the whole universe is ganging up on me. You’re also that only person that I would call just to complain (and fucking cry) about a chipped (literally) bloody toenail na hindi ko nararamdamang  magmumukha akong TANGA.

Maraming salamat. Ikaw lang nakakaintindi ng lahat ng kababawan at ka-brat-an ko mula nung simula pa. Haaay. Nagpapasalamat ako at nakilala kita.

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PUGNETTAAAAAAAAAA! Ang sakit-sakit-sakit niyaaaaaaa!

I hate you back, world! I hate you, too, universe! And you suck, Nimbus, I hate you with the fire of a thousand suns!

Salamat. Maraming salamat. Haha. Shemay, sobrang nakakahiya talaga. Pero salamat :)

PS — Ilang buwan na ang lumipas nasa Chapter 9 pa rin ako ng Confessor kumusta naman di ba? Naku kinakalimutan ko na sila Kahlan, Cara, at Nicci. At ay, si Richard Rahl pa pala haha. Yung bida ang kinalimutan talaga eh no? Anyway, bangenge na desu kara, salamats ulit :)

Something good will come my way
And maybe this good thing’s gonna happen today …

Znenzvat fnynzng, Yhan

1. Linsyak na mga nag-su-suicide na yan sa train tracks. Bukod sa pagbabayarin pa nila ang mga naiwang mahal sa buhay ng kung ilang milyon bawat minutong nadedelay ang train sked, dagdag stress pa sa mga normal na nilalang na nais lamang makarating na ng bahay para mahimbing.

2. Umulaaaaaaan! Shet nabasa ang aking pinakamamahal na Tsekerd Shoes! Nakngtokwaaaaa!

3. Alas-ocho na kami nakalabas ng opis. Waaaaah. Nahilo pa ako sa kaka-scroll-up and scroll-down nung doc namin kanina sa projector.

4. Saizeria. Ang dami nung na-dinner namin, kakaloka.

5. Ano, Meemax? Tuloy natin yun!

6. OMFG, David Cook! You will always be a part of me, I’m part of you indefinitely. I’m fcukin’ singin’ a Mariah song! What on earth is happening to me?!

hindi ko mahanap ang hinahanap ko
ke buong maghapon o buong araw man akong
walang katapusang maghalungkat at maghalughog
sa mga nakatiwangwang at nakasalansan
na mga bagay-bagay at walang-silbing kaalaman
mo, ko, natin, nila, o kahit na sino pa man.

hindi ko pa rin alam ang gagawin ko.
saan at papaano nga ba ang dapat na
ginagawang panimula sa bagay na gaya nito?
kakaunti pa lang naman talaga ang alam ko,
di maiiwasang sobrang mahilo at malito,
maburaot, mainis, mag-alburuto.

lintek na yan naman, kanina pa ako dito,
hanggang ngayon wala pa rin akong
napapalang direksyon o ni anino ng plano.
hanggang kailan ba ako mangangapa dito?
sana nawa, dapat lang, siguro naman
magkakaroon din ng linaw lahat ng ito.

19:22 2008/04/15

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Sometimes you wish for the impossible, because you know that it is impossible, it is improbable, it is unattainable. And you know that you know that it’s all for the sake of wishing and hoping and dreaming and nothing more. But there comes a point in your life where you might think that maybe, just maybe, if you really want something that badly, all of the universe will conspire to give you what that something is for you to be at least marginally happy.

But you didn’t know that in reality, all of it is just one huge stupid illusion — the whole universe will conspire for you to be happy shit is just one big marketing propaganda to sell Coelho’s book. No, the effin’ universe doesn’t care if you want something really really really bad, that you would go to the ends of the earth just so you could be with the person you really really really like, that you would pray every single day that those drawn plans will come true. The universe might even whack you upside in the head or deliver one mighty brain-dislodging slap to wake you up from all that incessant and useless dreaming. Reality check — dreams don’t come true and wishes are just said during effin’ birthdays just for the heck of it. Any dream or wish that comes true is just an anomaly, just a frikkin’ accident. There’s nothing more to it.

And so, because everything — all of it — is for naught, I will stop hoping. I will stop this useless wishing. I will quit all this exhausting and brain-taxing dreaming. Because dreams and wishes and hopes are just crap anyway. Sad reality? Yes, boohoohoohoo, so so so sad. But I gotta suck it up coz it’s frikkin’ fact of life. Eh … whatever.

Dahil lang ito sa post ni Alvin. Napag-isip tuloy ako.